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La Femme
FELYN G 28 February 1989 Pisces Wishlist
♥A Maltese ♥ ♥ ♥ Sweet Loves ♥KAREN*DAIIDAI ♥SILVEN KAT KIM STEPFAN JASON Archives Celebrated our dearest DD birthday last saturday =... sunday night irritating ppl in the train 4.August.2009Alright, time to update!! Last tuesda... normal post.. random updates Boring .. Boring.. BORING~Fought again .. Yes with... Da Sao& Wenford's Birthday Stepfan's Birthday with baby at suntec
January 2009 |
Saturday, 5 September 2009 I really had enough!!.. Why is it im always not important to u?! Why always leave me in lurch and treat as nothing has happened! Did u ever wonder how afraid m i in the night alone after tt incident? .. Did u ever worried about my safety? How can u be so cruel?! U didnt even look back for me!! not even once.. U even gave me nasty words.. hang my calls... I always wished u wld chase aft me.. Never.... Felt so helpless in the middle of the night all i cld do is cry n run back hme.. Have you appreciate what i did for you for e past one an a half yrs? How much i suffered.. Sitting behind u all the while.. All i cld do is kept quiet.. How envious when i c ur sis n bf always gg out while i cld just sit or slp there alone... talk back to u, u gave me tantrum. kept quiet, dont answer u, u go crazy too.. U said i always nag u ... but did u ever understand all is for ur own good? Went missing for days when smth happened... i cld just cry everday n wait for u... When im having fever, cramps... u never once came to take care of me... u even quarreled with me making me feel so worst... u dont give a damn.. Even if we quarreled u wont even give in to me despite me feeling so unwell.. U always tell me u are stress.. u want me to understand u.... den who ever understand me before?? I want my bf to be there for me when i need him... he always dont.... i want to understand u.... But tell me.. When did u ever understand my feeling before??! U told me couples doesnt always have to hug n hold hands... Then whats the difference of us s normal friends??! How idiot i always look like sitting alone, walkin alone, looking at other couples oppsite us so loving.. Whenever we never quarrel, u wld tease my parents.. my family.. sing song abt them.. u told me i cant take jokes.. Bt dont u find u are really too much? u don even give respect to me n my family.. u find it a joke... I always got lots of things to share with u.. like all other couples... share with u my happiness.. my unhappiness... bt im always talking to the wall.... being excited alone like a idiot... tell u im sharing smth with u.. u wld say u r busy... when i accidentally hurt myself.. u dont even look at me n ask me does it hurt.... When i buy present frm overseas.. or for birthday present for ur family ... u always said cheapskate... do u know it hurts? it's just a little thought frm me...n u shld know mre clearly than anyone else why im broke.. The letters i gave u.. gifts.... u didnt kept them properly... u dont even cherish them n yet u gave excuses that no space... U said u kept alot of things to urself... but do u know i wish u cld share everything with me? How m i suppose to know what u r thinkin when u tell me none... n yet u blamed me for not understandin u.. U brought all those stress.. all those misers to urself.. yet i have to endure it with u.. u dont even find u owe me those sadness n treat me better.. but u just take it for granted n doesnt care abt my feelings... I just want a bf to love me.. care for me.. share with me my happiness n unhappiness.. gave in to me n coax me whenever im unhappy... why is it so difficult ...I always tell myself u will change... but i just gt disappointment again n again... i know u got lots of things undone... but y u dont even cherish someone who is always there waiting for u....... U always push all those fcukin blames on me when things happened. U never gave me chance to fight back for myself even its ALL solely ur fault. U only want me to act things ur way.. I could only talk when u ask me to. Kept quiet when u ask to.. Dont ask a single thing when im ask not to. Whatever things started from u, u still got e cheek to shout at me, scold me nasty things. Search your soul and ask urself what did i do wrong? All the wrongs i do is to have u as my bf. I dont even know why im always there for u.. always there helpin u... always behind u.. yet u want hurt me so much. treated me like i owe u ur fcukin life. All these things i written here... ive told u umpteen times... u felt nth at all... u dont even find u got wrong at all... Tell me how can u be so heartless? so selfish? U feel nth at all when u did all those things to me. U never dried my tears for me n yet even stab my heart deeper... Why want hurt me !! -PLEASE DONT COMMENT ON THIS POST-
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